heels up.

oh..frackalacking...

ok. '

entry ni mostly lots and lots and pictures.

but if you're too lazy,

just scroll down to the bottom.

that's my real entry <3

ni masa kecik2 je.

When your crush stares and smiles at you.

WHAT’S ON YOUR MIND THAT YOU WANT TO DO;

HOW YOU ACTUALLY REACTS;

“hi.”

 

When i saw my crush:

ooh..

okay.

that's all.

saje je.

been spending a LOT of time kat tumblr baca bende2 gitu.

and it really makes me feel glad.

because.

at least.

bukan aku sorang je la yang phatetic dalam dunia nih

having a crush and he doesnt know a thing about it.

 gah..

by the way.

when scrolling kat tumblr tadi,

ada satu blog yang cool sangat!

tumblrblog tu adalah a place where..

crushers tell what are they really feel about their crush

but didint have the guts to tell him.

and i was like.

wah...

and then ada la submit a coup or two kat situ. haha

here's the site's link:

http://crushes.tumblr.com

or this one kalau korang nak post feelings gak:
http://www.letterstocrushes.com/more

and dalam banyak2 letters to crush kat situ,

aku palaing minat gila yang nih:

'I suck at displaying my emotions with you. I do. And I hate it.
So here. (I’ll work on the in person thing.)
You know when you have a really really great dream, and you’re super happy, and then you kinda wake up halfway, and drift back off to sleep, hoping to keep the dream? You know the feeling when you get that awesome dream back immediately and continue with it? Yeah. That feeling.
When you have to take a walk, run or bike ride somewhere and the sun is shining, and it’s warm, but not too hot, and the grass is really green and the bees are buzzing? That happiness.
When it’s a cool night, and there is a huge storm brewing outside, and thunder clangs, and you snuggle deep down in the warm covers? That safeness.
When you’re in a crowded place, and you smile at a little kid, and their face lights up and they get a huge grin? THAT.
That is how you make me feel.'

see? the whole para was like.

omg.

that's exactly how i feel!
haha.

apa2 pun

aku tanak berharap sangat about this crush thingy.

i mean.

they barely know me.

and i barely know them.

and it was like bertepuk sebelah tangan je.

so..

tanak berharap sangat.

by the way,

about both of my crush:

Crush no.1:

He's tall,

Sawo Matang ( had to ask all my friends sawo matang tu ape)

ada muka macam Sam tsui sikit.

an athlete.
dia kadet polis,
rambut dia macam taylor lautner masa muda,
tu je.
tanak kasi too much information.
kalau ta nanti kawan2 sekolah aku tahu.
haha.



Crush no.2
the tall,dark and handsome type.
mata sepet,
rumah biru! syahbandar! sama. haha.
dia kadet polis gak.
ku selalu stalk fb dia. haha.
rambut dia curly  sikit.
body type: biasa but in cool way.
dia pakai messenger bag, kasut warna putih,
an athlete,
pergi sekolah naik moto.
hari tuh kalkulator aku jatuh dari kereta.
and at the same time dia lalu dekat sbelah kereta naik moto.
dalam hati wishing.:
please la langgar kalkulator tuh
biar dia jatuh, lepastuh aku be his knight in baju sekolah.
so that he'll notice me. haha.
ok.
berangan lebih2 lak. haha.
ok. tu je yang aku tahu dan yang aku ingat.
oh ye.
dia pakai helmet putih.
ngeh3..

hmm.
by the way.
aku rasa aku dengan dayat dah over dah.
semua dah end.
tapi aku ta rasa sedih sangat pun.

sebab.
turns out.
he's not that perfect.
and pasal entry2 pasal dia tuh.
aku tanak delete.
let he be the chapter for the past.
a reminder for me.
honestly,
sebenarnye best gak dah tade relay dengan dia.
haha.
bongok la kau Najwa.
tapi betul. haha.
dah la.
sekali dia baca ada pulaj dia pergi sound aku. pastu kene maki pula.
haiyo.

and.
aku ta dapat nak bayangkan kalau crushes aku baca entry nih.
haha.
mesti blushing gila lah aku kalau aku dapat tahu diorang baca.
haha.
segan weyh.




ok.
that's all rasenye.
tadi tade fire drill.
sedih woo..
tiap kali bunyi loceng dalam hati aku wishing:
'harap2 la loceng ni dua minit'
tapi tidak.
haha.
siren pun ta kedengaran.
sedih tau.
hampa diriku.
takpe la.
maybe things will work out better next week.
hope so.
Insyaallah :D

yusry nampak macam arwah ayah aku.

oh ye.
Lisa Surihani and Yusry dah kahwin.
kalau korang tengok Lisa's solemnization dress,
aku suka gila!
aku rase nanti bila aku nak nikah aku nak yang lebih kurang gitu.
tapi lagi lawa ah.
haha..
and nampak ta Lisa punye kek hantaran kepada Yusry.
bentuk gramafon kan?
cool gila!
untungla Yusry. haha..
ok.

bye for now.
i have exams next week.
pray for me. thanks :)
love you all :D

p/s: I barely know you. But I have feelings for you.
p/p/s: nak minat kerjasama jasa baik korang yang baik gila nih :)
kalau rajin, please coment what do you want to hear more dekat blog nih.
be anoynamous if you like. kalau korang rajin je. sorry for the capctha or watever tah bende tuh.
trimas!

Crush

oh..frackalacking..

wah..

dah lama ta update blog.

korang mesti dah rindu kat aku seteengah mati dah.

haha.

ok.

perahsantan.

tajuk tu random je.

sebab tengah dengar lagu crush by David Archuleta.

terus teringat kat mr.Crush 2.

ok.

boleh ta ada dua crush?

boleh la~~~

boleh rasenye..

haha..

ok.

minta approval dari sendiri memang la boleh.

wahatver~.

tadi kat sekolah ada buat fire drill.
kelas aku kelas paling dekat dengan padang.
and kalau nak dengar pengumuman atau bunyi locng memang susah la.



ok.
back to the fire drill.
waktu tu, cikgu kitorang ta masuk.
so kitorang pun buat la hw yang bertimbun tuh semua.
then sewaktu aku menari2 sambil nak buang cawan ice blended
yg dah kosong tuh,
aku tedengar bunyi siren.
and then.
mula2 aku ta sure sangat.
and then.
aku sure gila.
so aku pun terlompat2 kat depan tu cakap kat satu kelas aku
'wey! bunyi siren la!'
at first diorang blurr lagi.
and aku pun keep on lompat2
then diorang pun dengar jugak..
lepas tuh kitorang terus kluar.
the procedure as you all know it,
kene beratur luar kelas dulu kan?
tapi waktu tu aku terhenti depan pintu.
and aku ternampak one of my crush berlari2 anak.
and i was like..
oh my god! i see an angel running.
haha.
mengarut.



and then terlupa about the fire drill  tu sekejap and was like
petrified sebab nampak Sam Tsui Malaysia.
and then i was back to reality.
and then without following the procedure.
aku,lela,and daya jalan je.. haha.
budak2 lain beratur.
mungkin kami ni sangat excited.
aku pulak sebab nak keep up dengan S.Tsui. haha..

then kitoran pun sampai di padang.
waktu tuh,
disebab kan kelas aku and S.Tsui plaing dekat dengan padang,
It was like,
deserted sekejap.
ada dua kelas je kat situ dulu.
then lama2 baru datang kelas lain.
and then datang la kelas Crush no.2 aku.
haha.
have to admit.
aku lebih crush+crash kat crush kat no.2 nih.
and then he was like,
standing sebelah aku.
and my heart beat around like a bass~
it keeps booming over,booming over baby~
haha.
tapi buat donno jela.
his identity remain secret.
haha.
lepas i look at his face,
and he pun tegur la and we talk.
a bit.
and then,
cikgu2 suruh duduk.
dia duduk jauh sikit.
and i was like.
asal la dua2 crush aku ni jauh sangat!
haha..
tension~



and then masa cikgu2 tengah bebel tuh,
aku pun main la cabut2 rumput,
berborak dengan kawan aku,
bergurau,
capat kawan aku dah rentung la,
ta sempat nak selmatkan pembantu makmal la.
haha.
dak amy pulak dia cakap
'yeay~ sekolah dah terbakr. esok cuti."
haha..
pape jela kau emy.
huhu..
then....
out of the  blue.
ternampak muka Crush no.2 tuh.
the tall dark and handsome.
and i wass like.
gah!!!
haha.
aku selalu over reacted.
haha.
maaf2.
then he mouthed somthing at me.
and i know apa yang dia mouthkan.
about someone whom i hate right now.
and i was like.
no.! tak!
so aku pun buat la silang pangkah macam ultraman tuh.
kitorang pun dengar jjela cikgu cakap apa.
cuaca panas terik gila!
haha.
tapi takpe.
if that what i should do to be closer with both of my crush.
i'll stay there for a thousand years!
haha.


“Aku bukan tak sabar, hanya tak ingin menanti
Karena berani memutuskan adalah juga kesabaran
Karena terkadang penantian
Membuka pintu-pintu syaithan”

Salim A. Fillah (via segelasairmasak)

ok.
aku tatau kenapa tahun ni aku:
kuat sangat berangan,
rush of hormones selalu sangat.
ahah..
ok2.
not going to let the feeling stop .

ok.

tadi mak aku tanye pendapat aku tentang iPhone 4s
and aku pun cerita kan jela specs tu sume
pastu aku pung cakap la..
boleh eh belikan untuk angah?
and mak aku macam..
tengokla dulu..
haha.
ok.
ada harapan lagi tuh..
wah..
bestnya kalau dapat!!
wuwuw..

         Fairy tales might not exist but a                     blessed marriage from your creator will be far better than any love story..InshaAllah Ameen ♥ 

—	Reminders Benefit The Believers

by the way,
being a form four science student was tough.
susah weyh!
penat gila! ta cukup tidur kadang kala.
lepas tuh dengan tons of homework lagi..
baaahhhh...
penat weyh.
tapi tape la.
kalau nak jadi engineer kene toough.
You can do it Najwa!
ok.
i can. aha aha. i can.

aku selalu stalk crush aku.
normal la tuh kan.
haha.
(random)



by the way,
im so happy for my friend,i mean my bestfriend.
i mean, My BESTFRIEND!
Norhidayah Bt, Haris.
she's actually my twin.
im so happy because.
she's so happy.
she's so happy because he's found the guy.
yang make her smile.
and tiap kali aku pandang diorang was like.
SWEET NYE :D
wuwuw.
jelaous I ~
haha..
hope they are happy together <3



tu je aku nak update.
kalau esok ada fore drill jugak.
insyaallah aku update.
aku tahu korang suka dengar pasal latihan lebakaran.
ok.
bye peeps.
love you all~
im falling for you S.Tsui Malaysia and mr.Crush <3

my own version of Safe and Sound.

oh frackalacking..

I remember tears streaming down my faceWhen you said, I'll never let you goWhen all those shadows almost killed my lightI remember you said,you wont leave me here aloneBut all that's dead and gone and passed tonight...

I'm closing my eyesThe sun is going downI'll be alrightNo one can hurt me nowCome morning lightYou and I'll be safe & sound...

 Darling,I didnt dare to look out of the window.Everything's on fireThe war outside our door keeps raging onHold onto this lullabyEven when the music's gone, gone

Im closing my eyesThe sun is going downI'll be alrightNo one can hurt me nowCome morning lightYou and I'll be safe & sound...

Oooooo, Oooooo,Oooooo, OoooooLala... Lala...Lala... Lala...

Oooooo, OooOoo,Oooooo, OooOooLala... Oh Lala...

Closing my eyes.I'll be alrightCome morning light,You and I'll be safe & sound...

Oooooo, OoooOooo,Oooooo, OoooOooo,Oooooo, OoooOooo,Oooooo, OoooOooo,

Oooooo, OoooOooo,Oooooo, OoooOooo...

where did all those promises go baby ?

I have a CRUSH!!

ahaha.

befeore i said any further.

it's not one of my classmates or whatver.

this is someone else.

but am not  going to..

you now.

mengaku.

and tell him.

i have my own dignity.

ngeh3.

but im still with dayat.

which mkes me a bit guilty.

but.

then, who ask you to pegi jauh2?

and ada tu..tu....tu....you know...tu.....

ok. lah.

baik aku buat karangan!!

klau ta nanti kene marah.

dahla haritu kene marah.

then kene berdiri sepanjang kelas.

aku dengan laila asyik curik2 duduk je.

haha.

wee~~~

sweeeet timmmeee...

ok lah.

of you go now!

bye!

love you all peeps!

and mr.Crush.

currently :D

p/s: teringat pulak lagu Paramore-Crush

p/p/s: cuba dengar 

lagu Skinny Love -Birdy.

serious best!!
p/p/p/s:weh.try la dengar lagu ni yang betulnye. Taylor Swift's

im back home.

oh...frackalaacking..

Assalammualaikum :D

you  peeps!

dah lama tak jumpa. hehe.

aku tahu korang rindu aku tapi tanak admit. 

kan.?

okay.

sebelum aku memuji diri sendiri lebih2.

let me straight to le point.

am back HOME <3

yeah.

baru balik from Shah Alam.

Alhamdulillah made it home safely.

Miss my buddy.

am a Loner kat sana.

dah la mesej dayat dia tengah kerja.

tup tup dia balas pukul 2.30 pagi.

lol.

time tu aku dah tido tengah mimpi

kissie2 dengan Harry Styles dah. haha.

oooh..

and yeah..

cube search kat Youtube and type TannerPatrick

cover dia serious best!

omg2.

dah la ohsome punye handsome :D

haha.

ok.

mode menggatal dah on,

man...serious kiut :D

ok. stop it.

by the way.

sekarang tengah tunggu download Photoshop CS5 habes.

man.

lagi 15 hours. D:

kalau mak aku dah hantar PC tu pergi betukan ta perlula 

ku bersusah payah nak download benda ni..

ok.

ak taatahu nak tulis ape lagi nih.

serious bosan sekarang.

walaupun ada banyak kerja rumah.

i think i'd rather be bored than doin my homework.

iyiyi D:

besok kene marah punya la.

blergh..

dah la.

kene berubah!

berubah la Najwa!!!

ok.

bye peeps.

<3

i always do this :D

yeay.new bag.bye2 money.

oh...frackalacking...

howdy human beings.

hope korang sehat,

aku sehat.

alhamdulillah.

baru balik dari Melaka nih.

weee..

mengantuk.

but malas nak tido.

tadi pergi Melaka sebab nak jemput nenek aku kat Melaka Central.

Pacik aku hantar dia kat sana.

but then.

sementara tunggu tuh aku ada belii bag.

dekat Jusco

a luggage.

sebab nanti insyaallah bulan 3 nak pegi buat Umrah.

murah je bag tuh.

harga asal dia dalam barapa entah.

tapi abang tuh kasi 50% diskaun.

omg.

dah la abang tu hensem.

ditambah lagi dengan diskaun tuh.

aku terus fall in love at the spot.

haha.

ok.

tipu.

jadi la RM230 mak aku kasi RM100 je.

lain2 guna duit aku.

huhu. sebaik. jimat duit ku.

tapi siyes abang tu cute.

cume cekeding sikit.

ada muka macam Sam Tsui.

cuba google sikit.

bag tu warna purple.

brand Polo whatver. 

nak letak gambar..

tapi aku malas la nak upload kan.

leceh.

tapi kalau ada gambar tu dah lama aku upload :D 

so korang guna jela imaginasi sikit.

and then bila pacik aku kata dia nak hantar nenek aku kat Jusco.

kitorang pun turun ke bawah dah menaymbut nenek ku.

and then makan2 kat food court.

then balik.

salam2.

dapat duit lagi sebab dapat 8A.

nngeh3..

tu je nak update.

aku bosan.

bye3.

oh ye.

aku still lagi dengan dayat.

saja je buat gimmick.

ahaha..

the thing is.

oh..frackalacking..

'When a girl loves you, No matter how many times you fuck up, no matter how big the mistake, she always finds a way to forgive you. No matter what you did, no matter how stupid you acted, she finds it in her to work things out with you, to compromise and keep the two of you strong. That’s why women deserve more respect; they don’t give up on relationships like guys do. Guys could learn a thing or two from you ladies.'

-demilica24

February suppose to be the month of love.

but i suppose .

it's better to be in love with myself.

rather than to be with you.

someday they'll see your true colours.

hope you'l be prepare.

the lies,

you know i hate lies.

but then.

you still giving lies.

it's okay.

i'm cool.

but you arent

.

and after this.

i wont give a damn.

about anything that you say.

i hate you now.

but i guess i hate myself more.

because didnt see you true colours earlier.

now with broken heart.

tears and bloody nose.

i realise what i shoul've done.

month before.

years before.

i thought you were different.

but you arent

now that i've blocked you out.

i hope that i'll be cured.

even though it will never be the same.

'my hands they were strong

but my knees were far too weak

to stand in your arm

without falling to your knees'

i wish you the best of luck

and i hope that you'l change.

i wish that i will be able to frget you.

sooner.

and i hope.

that they will see your true colours.

im sorry.

but i cant take it anymore.

maybe they can share.

but i cant.

that's not me.

you remember when i said.

im sure that we'll last forever?

yeah.

im really sure at that time

but now.

it's hard to get hopes up.

i know right now i still love you.

at this very moment.

but it's okay.

i'll find my way to move on.

i have my friend by my side where you dont.

i trust my friend where you dont.

wish you the best of luck.

even though i dont believe in luck.

and

thanks.

for everything.

you change me for who i am right now.

and im grateful by that.

or by now i wont be able to write this.

'nevermind i'll find someone better than you.'

Salam Maulidur Rasul.

Assalammualaikum.

Selamat Tinggal mr.D

Assalammualaikum Nur Hidayat Razlan.

p/s: tucen addmath jap lagi. wuwuw. najwa,ikhlas najwa! haha.

hope aku ta mengantuk. killer add math ~